Lost Hope

Lost Hope, 8x10 oil on panel... something Im experiencing at the moment...

Exploring the Looking Glass

Exploring the Looking Glass, 30x40 oil on gallery wrapped linen... This painting was done as an expression of my own confusion and lack of understanding about death. With the death of my sister and the myriad of recent deaths around me, I have been contemplating what actually happens after death... is there existence? And if so, what is it? So many views, so many beliefs, none of which can be proven one way or another. Maybe there is no other option but to mindfully abide in the mystery.

Borrowed Strength

Borrowed Strength, oil on linen... this painting was done soon after we learned that my baby sister was suffering with stage 4 lung cancer. It felt as though the family became one unit, sharing each others strength and holding one another up.

A Collective Consciousness

A Collective Consciousness 12x16 oil on canvas

Deconstructing the Puppeteer, 12x23 oil on board... We go through our lives viewing the world through our ego perceptions, perceptions that are nothing more than our preferred views, and we tend to believe that our view or perception is the correct one, so we feel empowered, and in control, we feel safe. In Buddhism we are encouraged to eliminate the power of the ego in our lives.  The concepts of me, I, and mine belong to ego, and are merely an illusion, as there is no me nor I, merely a group of opinions, or views which make up our personality. The personality is not who we are, but simply a display of our ego's needs, wants and desires. Without the influence of our egos, we are able to see the world as it truly is, free of our judgements, views, opinions, likes and dislikes. Without the ego, we are able to see everything in our lives in its ultimate reality, in its simple beauty, and accept it as such. This state of being brings about much happiness, dispels suffering, and is what is called enlightenment. This painting shows someone on the path to deconstructing that ego, and finding Nirvana. She is cutting the ego strings that have kept her imprisoned in a world of illusion.

The Emptiness of Words, 24x30 oil on linen. Words, our form of communication, which when we mindfully speak, we do believe that we are conveying what we intend to. However, words are subject to the perception of others, thereby often changing their intended meaning. Wars have begun over the mis-understanding of words. Friendships have ended, marriages failed... We believe that communication is a simple task, yet....it appears it is not simple at all.

The Three Seekers, 24x36 oil on linen. Inspired by Botticelli.  I actually wanted to name this the Three Realms, as when I completed the painting, what I saw in it, was the past, present and future. They are so interchangeable within the painting, that different sections of the painting would be identified with different time realms by different people. And, all would be correct, as time is nonexistent anyway. There is no time, merely a fabrication of human beings, to help sort out their day.