"Bite Me..."

I have to giggle every time I see that title... not very lady like, but definitely how I feel. I am having difficulty with a significant other, and frankly it will probably set me out on a single path again. After 20 years, not the easiest thing in the world, but I will survive. Thing is, he thinks I am too weak and insecure to go through with it.... so, voila!! A new painting is born. "Bite Me" shows a bit too much of my pain, again that subconscious painting thing, but over all I love the message, and it is so cute!!

I hope he chokes on his bite!

PS. Tune in later, when I am past this stage and acting a bit more mature about the whole thing.

My new painting, and awakening

Well, this is my new painting. I call it "The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil - for in the day that thou eatest thereof, thou shalt surely die"

Long title, for sure, but a necessary one I think. I began this painting, much like the last one... simply a painting that I thought would be fun and interesting. However, like the last one, it was finished the day after I found out something that may change my life forever.

You see, we all reassure ourselves that we want to know the truth, above all else. Oh, yes, the truth is the most important thing.... till one day we find a truth that disrupts our lives forever. Then we yearn for the old saying ... "Ignorance is bliss". Ah hah, there is no turning back though. So, I know the truth. It is uncomfortable, and I dont like it, but I know it nonetheless. It is causing me to make decisions that I am not ready to make, dont want to make, am sick over making. I dont even know how to make a decision like this one.

Oh well, enough of my drama on this subject. I hope you enjoy this painting... it has delivered quite an awakening to me, and always remember this: Be careful what you wish for!!

Growth of a Personal Nature

I have suffered from panic disorder all of my life. However, as I have gotten older, the panic attacks have all but subsided. I believe a part of that is because as I have grown, I have learned to trust myself more. I did this painting, and never really gave it much thought, until it was finished, and then I saw my story embedded in the painting. I was surprised, to say the least.

Subconcious painting. Now that is a new one on me!!

I have 2 large shows this weekend. I am a bit frazzled, but excited too! I look forward to the atmosphere. The people. The corny music they always play at these shows. The greasy food. I am excited.

I have a lot of ideas for new paintings. I only have one more show this year, and I am happy about having more time to paint!! Hopefully, I will get a lot done this winter, and be ready for a new spring and all that it brings.

Victorias Gift

This is Victorias gift to me. Let me tell you about Victoria. I met Victoria when she came over to look at art. I love it when it happens that way. You meet someone, and it just clicks, it just works. That is how it happened for us. It just worked. She is like a book. As you turn from chapter to chapter you learn more and more about who and why and where she is.

I had no idea that Victoria was so creative and talented. Yes, I knew that she was an avid art collector, and her taste was sublime!! (yes, I have been to her home, and wanted to bring all her art home with me!) I knew that Victoria understood art in a way that most people don't. But I never knew she was an artist herself.

This gift... Victorias Gift... is a culmination of several of my paintings. It shows the relationship between my mother and I. Her use of symbolism brings out the jealousy in me! She is so very very talented. I have never in my life had anyone ever do anything so meaningful and thoughtful for me as she has. I was awed and totally blown away when I opened the box and this gift was looking back at me. I cried. She became emotional. We hugged.

Victorias gift. Was it the beautiful artwork she made for me? Or was it Victoria? I think my gift from Victoria is Victoria.

Thankyou Victoria, for being who you are... and for being who you are with me.

I went on hiatus!

Wow, I have not painted in 6 weeks!! I have had company from England... the dude that runs this website... and neglected everything except having fun!! Everyone deserves that every now and then.

I was a bit leary to approach the easel again, so decided to paint something simple. This is the new painting... it is called "There is One in Every Crowd"... and aint it the truth!! I think we have all known "one", or even been "one". haha....

Anyway, I hope to be painting on a regular basis once again. I have tons of ideas floating around in my head, and I cant wait to see how they turn out...

Parisian Birdhouse... first and last

Parisian Birdhouse
Parisian Birdhouse Revisited

Well, there they are. I painted Parisian Birdhouse almost a year ago, and it has always been a popular painting. The original is sold, but the prints have continued to be requested. I thought it would be fun to try painting it again, but this time using oils, and changing the composition a bit. I can see where my painting has improved! haha.... However, I must admit, I still like the first painting better... and always will. Doing something the second time can be fun, but it is NEVER the same. Hope you enjoy the second rendition of a Parisian Birdhouse.

Makes it all worth while

I have written in the past about how difficult it can be to part with a painting. They are like children, and I have never sold a painting without experiencing a bit of regret and certainly sadness. There is always a huge dose of "I want it back" going on... haha

However, I sold The Second Sacrifice this past week. I must admit it was even more difficult that most, as the painting was only about a month old. It was a newborn... Can you imagine handing over your newborn for a check? Arg........ HOWEVER, I am so delighted with my paintings new mom. She is absolutely wonderful and has sent me a picture of my newborn hanging on her wall. She has gone above and beyond to give my baby a beautiful nursery and a wonderful home. This, my friends is what being an artist is all about. To know that you can bring joy into someones life. She is delighted and I, therefore, am ecstatic!!

Makes it all worthwhile.