The Red Shoes

I was raised an atheist and then at the age of 24 became a Christian. I studied. I read the bible and studied, and searched, and asked, and looked, and wandered. What I found was quite different than what I had been told.

So now I am on a spiritual path. I avoid organized religions, and seek God on my own, meeting a few fellow seekers along the way! This painting hopefully expresses what I feel when I think about religious organizations.

My intention is not to offend anyone at all, but merely to express myself. If I have offended you in any way, please forgive me.

smiles,
dzaet

The Grip

I have been suffering with depression for a couple of months, and just a few weeks ago was able to smile again. I have had relationship issues, and had to have my cat put to sleep. It has been awful. BUT, what they say is true. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I feel much better now. Although the depression is gone for now, I still wanted to try and do a painting of how it felt. I think, for me, this expresses the feeling that I had. I was unable to break free of the negative feelings.. it felt like I was imprisoned with sadness as my cell mate.

Thank goodness that I was able to overcome these awful feelings... and thank goodness that I was able to paint my feelings once again!

The Message

I have been stuck in a rut for a while now... using the same colors every time I do a portrait. I thought it would be fun and interesting to see what would happen if I explored the pallet a bit more.

I like the effect of these colors... she looks dark, and mysterious... I thought the bird a perfect addition to the expression on her face.

Anyway, I hope you like it. The original and prints will be available soon!!

smiles,
dzaet

Nutter new painting...

This painting is called "Beware of the Wolf in Mens Clothing". It is dedicated to the wolf that I have been in a relationship with. He pretends to be a man, but I have found him difficult to trust, or believe or even know. Does this sound harsh? It shouldnt. We have all at one time or another met someone who presented themselves to be one thing only to find out they are something entirely different.

I, on the other hand, have represented myself as a passive, gentle, trusting bunny!! No favorites here!! giggles...

Hope you enjoy the painting, and I hope you can relate to what it has to say!! It is available on the website and prints will be coming in the next few weeks!!

Pen and Ink

While at an art show this weekend, I became quite bored and restless... however the show was being held in an art supply shop. How much more wonderful could that have been? giggles... So I decided to play around with pen and ink. I havent done this since I was in the 7th grade art class...

I have been quite depressed recently, and no matter what I do it seems to work inself into my art. I did this, and honestly had a lot of fun. I call it Lost In Nothing, as that is how I feel sometimes. Being so lost within that you feel like even your own little "world" is fake.

Anyway, I have decided to play around with illustrations a bit more. When I cant paint, it is wonderful way to be creative, and express myself.

I hope you enjoy this little drawing.

"Bite Me..."

I have to giggle every time I see that title... not very lady like, but definitely how I feel. I am having difficulty with a significant other, and frankly it will probably set me out on a single path again. After 20 years, not the easiest thing in the world, but I will survive. Thing is, he thinks I am too weak and insecure to go through with it.... so, voila!! A new painting is born. "Bite Me" shows a bit too much of my pain, again that subconscious painting thing, but over all I love the message, and it is so cute!!

I hope he chokes on his bite!

PS. Tune in later, when I am past this stage and acting a bit more mature about the whole thing.

My new painting, and awakening

Well, this is my new painting. I call it "The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil - for in the day that thou eatest thereof, thou shalt surely die"

Long title, for sure, but a necessary one I think. I began this painting, much like the last one... simply a painting that I thought would be fun and interesting. However, like the last one, it was finished the day after I found out something that may change my life forever.

You see, we all reassure ourselves that we want to know the truth, above all else. Oh, yes, the truth is the most important thing.... till one day we find a truth that disrupts our lives forever. Then we yearn for the old saying ... "Ignorance is bliss". Ah hah, there is no turning back though. So, I know the truth. It is uncomfortable, and I dont like it, but I know it nonetheless. It is causing me to make decisions that I am not ready to make, dont want to make, am sick over making. I dont even know how to make a decision like this one.

Oh well, enough of my drama on this subject. I hope you enjoy this painting... it has delivered quite an awakening to me, and always remember this: Be careful what you wish for!!